Alright. The getting-back-in-action plan. I understand that I may not be able to avoid eating. BUT...

• Drink ridiculous amounts of water.


• At least an hour of exercise.


• A sip of water between each bite at meals.


• Watch and listen to others eat.


• 2 calcium pills/day.

I have really let myself go since New Years. I lost my grip on everything and just <i>ate</i>. Less than I would have, but more than necessary. And suprise suprise, my weights jumping around it places I don't want it. I am on a <i>diet</i>. I will gain it all back if I let go. I need to hold on to control, hold on for dear life, DON'T LET GO.
My biggest problem is eating in front of others. I feel as if I can't let them on to what I'm doing, so I have to eat for them. But I let myself go. I let myself just eat. I need to stop that. I need to eat a little, and stop. Eat a little, put my fork down, watch them gorge themselves, watch and listen to their mouths. That should hopefully help me.
Don't let go. Pick up the pieces. You don't have to clear your plate. Get it back.

• No eating after 8:30 pm. On Friday, no eating after 10:30.


• Walk around at work (home too) as much as possible.


• NO EATING before work. Avoid having someone bring me food if at all possible... that way, I sucessfully fast till 5 pm each day.


• Bring water bottle to work and finish.


• PLAY DDR AND MOVE AS MUCH AS POSSIBLE

SATURDAY DECEMBER 4
Weight: 119.5
Breakfast: nothing.
Lunch: a garlic roll with marinara sauce and a mini ceasar salad with only half the dressing packer.
Dinner: (too much) a vegan "Philly Cheesesteak" and 1/2 a peanut butter mousse thing, also vegan. delicious.
*This falls under the friends and family priority. It was between going out to dinner and being with my friends or being alone and sticking to my diet. Maybe the mousse thing was a bit excessive but I don't regret the dinner.
Water: WELL OVER 64oz. I include green tea in my estimates.

I have been having trouble making plans so I'm looking for for good meal ideas under 250 calories that I can get on campus. ( Read more... )
PROMISE for Sunday, December 5
Breakfast: none
Lunch: chocolate chip cookie OR cup of straw berries OR crackers w/hummus
Dinner: Soup at Hand OR Slimfast
Water: 64 oz
Exercise: DDR or yoga or abs or whatever. Just move!

THURSDAY DECEMBER 2
Breakfast - 1/2 carbsmart bar
Lunch - Raw veggies and some sun-dried tomatoes.
Dinner - Tomato flavor soup at hand.
Water - all 64 oz.
Exercise- about an hour of hard work in the gym.

FRIDAY DECEMBER 3
Weight: 119.0
Breakfast - 1/2 carbsmart bar
Lunch - large chocolate chip cookie.
Dinner - large burrito. 1 fingerful of cake icing.
* I wasn't feeling well today so I didn't want to totally starve myself. Health first. I did make up for it with unplanned exercise.
Water - 32 oz or so. Not enough.
Exercise - 5 songs DDR and some tough ab work.

Giving some thought to the 115 goal. And my other life priorities and how they work together. I have four weeks left. Four pounds to lose. But I've never been a pound-a-week kind of girl so this will be a challenge.
Week 1 - Last week of classes. I am a student before I am a future porn star. I'm thinking, walks for a study break.
Week 2 - Finals. I will want to reward myself after a huge stressful final or term paper but I'm going to try to make half of those rewards a cup of green tea with equal.
Week 3 - I am at home and finally will have the space and time to work out when I want to! I also won't be surrounded by food.
Week 4 - I will be working this week. And that won't start until 10:45ish so I will have some morning time to work out. And then if I close the store for my lunch hour, I'm thinking I can walk at the high school track or something.

PROMISE for Saturday, December 4
Breakfast: 1/2 carbsmart bar.
Lunch: Buy a premade ceasar salad. Take out the chicken and croutons. Tea.
Dinner: If at vegan dinner, watch portions and eat slow. If not, soup at hand.

And last of all. I know I will cut myself lots of slack that will sound like excuses. So I'm making a list of everything that is more important than my goals. That way, what I can and can't let myself go on is already written in stone.
-My physical health. I'm not going to deprive myself of nutrients when my body needs them, or exercise when  I'm hurt.
-My mental health. That does not mean food can be used to help my mental health in any way... that simply means that I'm not going to pick up any habits that make me sad or feel bad about myself.
-My relationship. I would rather be fat have him in my life than have a perfect body and not be with him. I can't anticipate how a diet would mess up my relationship, but you never know.
-My job is to be a student. Grades come first.
-My friends and family. If they need me, I'll be there.